Never Look Down on Yourself; the Future Is Bright

This post was extracted from my early NetEase blog. NetEase Blog is no longer operating, but looking back, these words are still quite interesting, so I decided to move them over as intact as possible. It is mainly kept as a record; after all, it is from a long time ago, so the quality of the writing, images, and links may all be affected.

This post was originally published on December 29, 2011. I was about 22 years old at the time, in my 1st year of work.

--- Dedicated to those friends who have gone astray. I hope you can lift your heads and see the sun in the sky.

Today a classmate's QQ was stolen. The account thief pretended to be my classmate and asked me to borrow money, but I quickly saw through it.

Then he began cursing at me. I subconsciously replied, "Actually, what is the point for people like you? If you have ability, earn money through your own skills. Is it meaningful to just give up on yourself?" I had only wanted to say something to him and did not expect any response. To my surprise, he actually replied, "Hehe, in this society, with money you have everything. You cannot compare me to a broken jar smashed worse." I was very surprised. Later, after a long talk with him, I discovered that actually not every "evil person" has a black heart. They have just been swept away for a moment and lost their direction.

"But if I succeed, they will all think highly of me, not look at what is behind you";

"I do not want to curse people either. It is just that I scammed him, and he also came to play me";

"Hehe, do something meaningful? Do what? Work? Or go wipe other people's butts?";

"I also want not to scam people. Besides, the money I scam is other people's hard-earned money. Some of it is even life-saving money. I feel very bad inside too";

"I am saying this from my heart, my true words. I really do not want to do these things. It is very annoying, always being called a scammer, always being cursed at";

"I have thought about what you said too. Now I just need to change, change myself. Only change can bring change. Self-reflection. Others have it; why don't I? His family has it; why does his family have it?";

"The real person is here now. I will not use his QQ anymore. Thank you, this person, for not cursing at me and for saying things that help people. I respect you";

"Attitude determines a person's height. I will work hard"

The conversation ended here. Although I do not know what happened to him later, I hope his future will be good. In the end, I still want to say the sentence I said to him before: "The one who looks down on you is not other people, it is yourself. As long as you have confidence and want to do something, the future is still beautiful!"

I do not want to say too much. I hope the future will be better!

Here is the uncut chat record (there must be some inappropriate things said. Since I am posting it, I do not hope people point fingers at the chat content).

Z.Mofei 20:38:37

Actually, what is the point for people like you? If you have ability, earn money through your own skills. Is it meaningful to just give up on yourself?

Chi Zhong Long 20:39:59

Hehe, in this society, with money you have everything.

Chi Zhong Long 20:40:27

You cannot compare me to a broken jar smashed worse.

Z.Mofei 20:40:37

Doing this in a day probably does not get much money, right?

Chi Zhong Long 20:40:37

What I am doing now is letting myself down.

Z.Mofei 20:41:15

If the software was made by you yourself, I admire you. But if you bought it, I really have to look down on you.

Chi Zhong Long 20:41:16

But if I succeed, they will all think highly of me, not look at what is behind you.

Z.Mofei 20:41:43

Kid, money is not almighty in this society.

Z.Mofei 20:41:47

You are still relatively okay.

Chi Zhong Long 20:42:09

But without money, nothing can be done.

Z.Mofei 20:42:13

Before, I met one who, after I saw through him, immediately started cursing, all kinds of dirty words came out.

Z.Mofei 20:42:21

I think people like that are very pitiful.

Z.Mofei 20:42:33

I also came out from the slums.

Z.Mofei 20:42:38

I understand you all.

Z.Mofei 20:42:59

I still feel very sorry for you all.

Chi Zhong Long 20:43:04

I do not want to curse people either. It is just that I scammed him, and he also came to play me.

Z.Mofei 20:43:13

Such great youth, and you do not go do something meaningful.

Z.Mofei 20:43:39

Actually, spending two years can let you learn a skill, and learn it very well.

Z.Mofei 20:44:01

But if you spend two years scamming these things, although you can have a little income,

Z.Mofei 20:44:04

what about afterward?

Z.Mofei 20:44:17

Can you rely on this for a lifetime?

Chi Zhong Long 20:44:22

Hehe, do something meaningful? Do what? Work? Or go wipe other people's butts?

Chi Zhong Long 20:44:56

I understand what you mean.

Z.Mofei 20:45:22

You are wrong about this. When you come out to work, first you have to respect yourself. So what if other people have money? People with money still need people like us to help them do things. Without us, they are nothing. Isn't that right?

Chi Zhong Long 20:46:08

I also want not to scam people. Besides, the money I scam is other people's hard-earned money. Some of it is even life-saving money. I feel very bad inside too.

Z.Mofei 20:46:37

I am in Shanghai, an outsider. When I first came, many Shanghai people looked down on outsiders like us, but I thought, if Shanghai did not have outsiders like us, at least it would not have today.

Z.Mofei 20:47:03

Then rely on your own effort to learn some skills and get a foothold of your own.

Chi Zhong Long 20:47:40

Hehe.

Z.Mofei 20:47:48

So the one who looks down on you is not other people, it is yourself. As long as you have confidence and want to do something, it is still possible.

Chi Zhong Long 20:47:55

I am saying this from my heart.

Chi Zhong Long 20:48:30

I really do not want to do these things. It is very annoying, always being called a scammer, always being cursed at.

Z.Mofei 20:49:05

Mm. Actually many people in society curse these people, but I think society is actually too cold.

Z.Mofei 20:49:11

Many people are forced by circumstance.

Z.Mofei 20:50:09

Everyone has their own pain behind why they do these things.

Chi Zhong Long 20:50:34

Have you seen the corruption of the police! I understand them now.

Z.Mofei 20:50:49

Mm, society is unfair.

Z.Mofei 20:51:02

But let me ask you one thing.

Chi Zhong Long 20:51:05

To say something realistic, this society is a society where people eat people.

Z.Mofei 20:51:30

Have you ever thought about what you will be doing 3 years, 5 years, 10 years from now?

Chi Zhong Long 20:51:45

I have thought about it.

Chi Zhong Long 20:52:19

Thought a lot.

Chi Zhong Long 20:52:28

Thinking and thinking, what can I do?

Chi Zhong Long 20:52:49

Right now you could say I have nothing.

Z.Mofei 20:53:04

You have two hands and two legs. Compared with others, what are you missing?

Chi Zhong Long 20:53:25

What I lack is a brain.

Z.Mofei 20:53:35

Even a disabled person can have his own dreams and struggle for them. Why don't you?!

Z.Mofei 20:53:46

Compared with them, you are much happier.

Chi Zhong Long 20:53:45

Hands and feet, yes. Brain, no.

Z.Mofei 20:54:20

When I chatted with a beggar before, he said that looking at these able-bodied people, he really envied them.

Z.Mofei 20:55:14

If I could walk, if I had feet, I definitely would not be worse than them! These things he told me, I think they make a lot of sense.

Z.Mofei 20:55:44

Compared with them, what reason do you have to give up on yourself? Who are you being fair to?

Chi Zhong Long 20:55:57

The real person is here now. I will not use his QQ anymore. Thank you, this person, for not cursing at me and for saying things that help people. I respect you.

Z.Mofei 20:56:12

Kid.

Z.Mofei 20:56:25

Take care of yourself. The future is bright.

Z.Mofei 20:56:44

I believe you can do it! Rely on your own effort!

Z.Mofei 20:56:49

I am cheering for you!

Z.Mofei 20:57:50

You should also be from Huainan, right?! We Huainan people must have backbone! Come on!

Chi Zhong Long 20:58:36

I have thought about what you said too. Now I just need to change, change myself. Only change can bring change. Self-reflection. Others have it; why don't I? His family has it; why does his family have it?

Z.Mofei 20:58:50

Hehe.

Chi Zhong Long 20:58:59

Let's leave it here for now. I also do not want to be a scammer.

Chi Zhong Long 21:00:40

Sometimes white and black cannot necessarily be friends.

Chi Zhong Long 21:00:54

Sometimes white and black cannot necessarily be friends.

Z.Mofei 21:00:59

Hehe.

Z.Mofei 21:01:02

I am not white.

Z.Mofei 21:01:14

I walked over step by step just like you.

Chi Zhong Long 21:01:33

Hope you will be better in the future.

Z.Mofei 21:02:35

For you, I have only one hope: rely on yourself to earn money, and the future will be good.

Chi Zhong Long 21:02:53

Money, to me, is not important at all. It is just that sometimes it is needed.

Z.Mofei 21:03:39

You should still be young~ Money is definitely not like what you think.

Chi Zhong Long 21:03:57

Is that so.

Chi Zhong Long 21:04:34

How the mindset is, money is how.

Chi Zhong Long 21:06:38

Attitude determines a person's height. I will work hard.